Bianca,
Anxiety for me came out of nowhere and hit me like a ton of bricks. It just started with a jitteriness and loss of appetite, constantly sweaty palms and an elevated heart rate I could feel. I started throwing up in the morning at the thought of going to work. I didn’t know about anxiety then and when I tried to explain it I would say I was a bit sick. I was losing weight fast too, but I had some weight to lose so I wasn’t worried.

Then the panic attacks started. For me everything centered around my heart. It would beat super-fast without any trigger and that alone would scare me.

The second time it happened I was scared and I called an ambulance. They took me to the ER as my heart was at 180bpm resting and that was the first time I encountered something I think is a massive problem.

I lost more weight and people were making comments about how my bones stuck out and I’d gone too far. Then one night I decided to drink some wine and I got a bit drunk and for the first time I actually felt relaxed. It was so good that the next day I had some more and it worked again and again and again. What followed was a downward spiral that would last about three years. During that time my marriage ended and so did most of my relationships. No one had signed up for this. I was an absolute mess making one bad choice after another.

I finally went to a walk-in GP to try and get help for my drinking problem and was finally put into therapy. That is where I learnt some anxiety control techniques and life became easier as I had people to help.

That all happened almost 10 years ago and my life now is blessed with a very good man and a beautiful boy. For where I am now I’m thankful, so ask help and see people coming to help and see life taking a new turn on the right track.

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